Monday, March 29, 2010

Of Course I Have Self Control!


I had to venture into W@lgreen’s today to pick up some pictures for a project. I was drawn down the Easter candy aisle like a Jedi’s strength flows from the Force. I went up and down that aisle for five minutes. You may think I’m kidding but I’m not. Did I want lifesaver jellybeans, sourpatch swedish fish (?), jolly rancher jelly beans, whopper robin eggs, chocolate bunnies, M&M robin eggs, cadberry eggs.. oh the list goes on. I mean, the choices were just overwhelming! I had actually wanted to try these new sour patch jelly beans because I’m a sucker for anything sour!

Without further a do.. this is what I settled on! securedownload


This was sitting IN the parking lot of said store.. at least I waited until I got into the car to tear the bags open. Now, I can either have a ton of self control or zero.

For instance I went to my favorite burger joint this past week (so I would have consumed  it THREE times) and I took my healthy little lunch and ate out of my lunch box as my friends chowed down on burgers. I can also eat at my favorite steakhouse and choose a grilled chicken salad.

It’s either all or nothing with me, all or nothing. Don’t know why. I will say this, I didn’t eat a ton! I had a little bit and I’m going to take it to school with me tomorrow to get rid of the rest. :) I’m a great influence.

Im not even going to talk about ‘Moovin March’ for the week because its just not good.

I will keep this up though. I made some changes, lost about 5 pounds and want to keep it up, even though I don’t plan on losing anymore, just working out and following through on healthy habits.

Hope everyone had a marvelous Monday.. what’s not marvelous about it?? It’s a FOUR day work week! Can I get a woot??

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Not Tears of Joy

We were given permanent, or as permanent orders as the military can get, orders to stay in Tx. I sobbed shed a couple of tears, put on my big girl panties, and am looking ahead into the future. It doesn't matter that this place sucks the life out of me, I will find ways to enjoy myself.

I get to spend the next 2 years with my husband, I'm making an appointment with a counselor to talk about enrolling in graduate school, and am attending a job fair in one month.

I will make new friends, seeing as all of mine have moved away, and I will be at peace with all the decisions that have been made this week and look forward to the future because I learned last year that God does everything for a reason. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. We may not learn of that reason for days, months, or years from now, if at all, but it all happens for a reason.

On that note, I haven't done so good this week with my work out and eating choices. I went to the same burger place TWICE to drown my sorrows in a cheeseburger, seasoned home made french fries and of course ranch. I had a brownie one day before said burger. I worked out Sunday and this morning and that's it. BUT.. there is always a but, I did eat good for breakfast and lunch everyday this week. That balances it all out right? I also didn't step on the scale once.. I was too scared. Maybe tomorrow..

Have a wonderful weekend!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Oh Army..

How you light the fire under my skin. Today, you turned my beautiful day into a terrible, no good, very bad day. Complete with tears, anger, and I may have even thrown myself a pity party.

I am a very laid back person when it comes to my husbands job. I'm not one of those spouses that complains about his job because honestly, I'm thankful that he has one and that we have insurance and a place to live. I honestly love the army and the lifestyle. I encouraged him to stay in and hope he chooses to re-enlist.

But today.. today I'm so irritated at the fact that nobody can tell me what in the world is going on. I'm struggling with this now because I want to apply for jobs. I want to attend job fairs. I am a planner. I plan things, its one thing that I'm good at. Some people are good at decorating, others are beautiful writers, me I am a planner! I need to look for a place to live, start re-organizing things, but with out that little paper that has a date and a state, I can do nothing.

Seeing that I am only certified in one state, I also have that uphill mountain to climb.

Today.. was just not my day. I cried my tears, got everything off my chest (not to the husband) and felt better. I will wait patiently, plan for 3 different outcomes, know the likelyhood of those happening are still slim, and go on with life. God likes to laugh at our plans Ive learned. I also learned that I may not see it now, but everything happens for a reason and it will all work out. I really do have a hard time with that last part though.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Moovin' Monday!!

Another week down!

I will say that I had a good week.

Down another lb, which puts me at my original weight back in August. I'm going to try to keep going though.

I started running and doing incline training to tone up my behind.

I found a work out video that I bought in November that got great reviews but still has the plastic on it! Shows how bad I fell off the wagon this past year.

I will say I am pretty proud of myself this week. Every Sunday morning, we have a big breakfast with my parents. Biscuits and gravy, eggs, sausage, we go all out! Yesterday, I had a banana and 1 serving of cheerios. I'm quite proud of the changes Ive made.

Random observation.. went to the dentist today.. they weighed me. Never been weighed at the dentist, but whatever. I went in the afternoon after I ate during the day, hadn't gone to the bathroom since lunchtime (just sayin') and had my shoes and clothes on (every little bit counts) and I put on 8 lbs. Seriously. I almost told them no, that I wouldn't get on the scale because I didn't want to be depressed. I even asked to take off my heels and they said no. I mean, it would have taken a second, they were slip ons (it would have made me feel better, even if it didn't matter!). Ok rant over.

Hope everyone had a great week!

Sunday, March 21, 2010


Spring break is over. OVER. Oh how I enjoyed lounging around doing what I wanted, making plans at my convenience, and playing hookie. Now comes the hard part, 6 weeks of a crammed pack schedule. I looked at my calender tonight and it makes my head spin at warped speeds.

I usually look forward to breaks being over as I miss those little kiddies, but this time, I actually enjoyed my time to myself.

On a different note, Spring is here. I got SO much accomplished in the last week. Everything on my list plus some more. I feel so good right now, just knowing there isn't a looming cloud called a 'to-do list' hovering over my head, makes me happy. But since Spring is here, I was excited so excited to officially bust out the flip flops and shorts (I may have last Sunday when the high was in the 80's) but no. I woke up to 7 inches of snow on the ground. In Texas. Yesterday it was in the 70's. Tomorrow the high is in the 60's. Today, snow. I'm supposed to take our class on a nature walk tomorrow so that we can talk about Spring, hard to talk about spring when there is snow on the roof tops. I really want a normal climate. WHen I say normal, I really mean warm. Anything below 73 is cold me to. I carry a light jacket around in the Summer because I freeze everywhere we go because I get so cold!

Happy Sunday!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

I did it!

Wow... that is all I can say. Lasik was THE best thing I have ever done. I was nervous over nothing. I felt like I was in there for 5 minutes, it was that quick. Seriously. I keep reaching for my glasses or trying to push them up. I feel so naked with out them on my face. I have some 'bruising' on my eyes and it should last about 3 weeks and I have to use 4 different eye drops for at least another week but other than that, I feel great. After my valium induced nap following the surgery, I was up and going. I felt great!

I did get some looks in the gas station with my goggles on. I was suprised at how many people came right out and asked me why I was wearing them. I mean, what if I had something wrong with me and had to wear the goggles 24/7, kinda rude dont ya think. Totally understand being curious and I had no problem telling people why but what if it was because I had a serious ailment?

I had a brain stem injury in '08 and had to wear an eye patch for 4 months and I bedazzled them. You wouldn't believe the comments I got from strangers when I had an eye patch!

Point of the story.. if you're contemplating Lasik.. totally worth it. Best thing I have ever done. I splurged on some expensive sunglasses as my anniversary present and cant wait for the sun to show its beautiful face so I can wear them. Seriously Texas, possible snow and rain today but 70 degrees on Monday. Im DONE with that! Haven't we moved on to Spring weather??

In other news.. Jane over at is hosting a give away. Go show her some loooove! I love reading about her med school life.. wish I was intelligent enough to go to med school but I could never be a science major. When I realised I had to be a science major to go into a med school, I went with my second passion in life, teaching!

Hope everyone has a great week!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

12 hours..

lasik Pictures, Images and Photos

Literally.. 12 hours until I'm glasses free. I'm getting nervous but I just keep telling myself, its 30 minutes and I'm done for the rest of my life. Amazing how fast a week will fly by when your dreading something.

I have read, re-read, even had Mr. G read my pre-op instructions. I can't be breaking any rules now, this is my vision you know!

PSA: Don't ever search photobucket for pictures of 'Lasik' for your blog. Especially if you have an eye phobia. It will thoroughly gross you out.

I accomplished all my Spring break 'goals' for the week. I'm ready to kick my last 6 weeks of my undergrad career into gear and get this show on the road. I'm and stalking White House/Black Market for my graduation dress, waiting for it to go on sale. Husband thinks its looking more and more like we are going to Georgia. This really makes my head hurt. Texas and Georgia are two different states with two different laws when it comes to teaching. I pray that it will be as easy taking a test and getting certified and getting a job. If not, I don't know what I will do. And here comes the head ache..

On that note, hope everyone has a beautiful weekend! I will be sleeping majority of it and being a bum!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Get Moovin March.. Week Thu-ree!

I must say, I kicked @$$ this week! Very proud of myself. I have changed my eating habits tremendously. Instead of nightly snacks like a bowl of ice cream, a candy bar, or chips I bought 80 calorie sherbert cups that I will let myself have. Big difference the cake and ice cream has made once it is cut out. I only ate fast food once and I worked out really hard 4 times. I have started to see a little bit of differnce and the number on the scale went down a little bit, not that I expect it to as I don't have alot to lose otherwise it wont be healthy, I just need to tone.

My biggest goal was to cut out my snacking and now that I have found better alternatives, I plan to stick to them. Im not craving the fast food as much anymore either and hopefully I will stop craving cake, ice cream, and candy soon too. Seriously, some people crave alcohol, I crave sugar. I dont drink but man I crave a candy bar after a hard day at school, let me tell ya!
Ice cream Cake Pictures, Images and Photos

I will say that I have an app on my iPhone that has the nutritional value of a plethora of restraunts so I can't say I won't pick the healthier choices when dining out. Ihop even has a healthy choice menu now, which is a good thing since Im craving french toast like its going out of style! Maybe the husband will be wining and dining me there this weekend since I will be holed up in the house after Friday (so Ive been told). Four days left!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Taking the plunge!

Im taking the plunge, Im getting LASIK in 6 days! Im actually really excited. Im ready to burn these frames that have taken permanent residence on my face and get rid of them for good! I feel so comfortable with the place I chose and the staff was so friendly! I cant wait to work out and my glasses not fall of my face, wake up and not have to reach for my frames, and last but not least, not have to constantly change from glasses to sunglasses.


I always take my glasses off for pictures and its rather embarrassing to have to say 'hold on' so I can hide them in my hand or throw them on the counter. Ive heard from many people that this was the best thing that they have spent money on and I am literally busting from the seams if you can't tell!

Sporting the frames..

Anyone have a great LASIK story they want to share to calm my fears that are soon to come? Because like I said, I am scared of eyes!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Why hello....

Spring break!!! Oh how I'm so glad to see you! I have big plans for us this year, a whole lotta nothing will our time together entail!

Spring break is here and Im so excited to rest and rejuvinate. I have big plans to catch up on doctors appointments, a hair appointment, cook some new recipes, and spend time doing nothing! Last year I spent Spring break skiing and Im kinda sad that Im staying put this year but after the last 9 months of a workload that I have taken on, 10 days of doing minimal schoolwork and lesson planning will be exciting!

In other new.. tomorrow I have an appointment to see about getting Lasik. Anyone had it before?? Want to offer insight? Everyone has there phobias.. snakes, spiders, thunderstorms.. Mine is eyes. Yes, you read that correctly, I am afraid of eyes. You cant talk about eyes, touch your eye, get near my eye. NADA. I curl in the fetal position and freak out, yes, as an adult. I had to have eye surgery last year due to a brain stem injury that effected my eyes and normally the surgeon allows his patients to stay awake for this 15 minute procedure, but not me. He full on sedated me because of my phobia.

So good vibes my way that I can do this. I hate my glasses. Hate them, hate wearing them, hate that they fall off my face when I work out, hate always having to change them when I go outside, HATE THEM. DId I mention I dont like them?

Anyone had Lasik that doesnt like eyes either and had a good outcome?

Happy spring break everyone!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

The Great Wait

Oh how I hate waiting.. I feel all I do is wait. Waiting on orders. Waiting to see where we will live. Waiting to start applying for jobs. Oh and if you only knew me.. I am verrrry type-A. I try to be more go with the flow, really. It has been a goal of mine I have been working on. Mr. G, he is very laid back, fly by the seat of his pants. The girl behind these thumbs, not in a million years! If we are going on a vacation for instance, I like to plan when I am going to start planning. Seriously, Im borderline nutty! I just like to be in control, I know that God laughs at our plans, that is why I write everything in pencil (and have 3 back-up plans). 37 days.. that is all we have to figure out where we are going and what is going to happen.

On a happier note.. I have a first. I bought my first business ensamble for when I interview for jobs. I also have my dress picked out for graduation, both from The Limited. I have never really been in there before but they have really classy clothes for work. I normally stick to New York and Company and Express. Anyone have any nice professional clothing stores that they like that I haven't found? I have to buy my clothes in petite sizes (thanks to my short legs) and hate hemming my pants so unless they come in a petite size, unless they are to die for pants, I won't buy them.

Grab My Button!

So.... last week, didn't go near as well as I had thought. I got sick (thank you, 1st graders). I barely worked out but I ate ok. Didn't help that I found an AMAZING home made pizza recipe that I had to make and I ate it for dinner and had left overs for lunch the next day AND dinner. In my defense, I only ate 2 pieces for lunch and 1 piece for dinner.

Enough with excuses, they are like asses, everyone has one!

I weighed in on Friday, lost 1.2 lbs. Not too bad, my goal is 6lbs. but I really want to tone up so Im trying to stay away from the number and look at results.

I am more diligent about working out this week, Im kicking my cold and feeling good. Amazing how you do one good workout and it gets you in the mood for the rest!

Hope everyone else did better than me!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

It Only Took 4 Days

I have been back in first grade for four days.. four days and I am already sick. Sick with a nasty head cold that coincidentally falls on a 4 day weekend. Same as last time I got sick.

Side note- the way my student teaching works is I spent 8 weeks starting in August in 1st grade, switched to 5th grade for 16 weeks, now I'm back in 1st grade for my last 8 week rotation.

When I started in 1st grade, I was sick in 6 days with a nasty head cold, fever, congestion and sore throat. This time around, I have all that again but fever was low grade. I really wasn't expecting to get sick at all, 1. because I had already been sick and 2. I have been taking vitamins so I thought I was immune to their little germies!

Oh well, live and learn. I have been told that next year I will use all my sub days being sick if not more. I am a very healthy person who never gets sick so I dismissed it, I'm starting to think I should take this more seriously.

On another note.. We have orders.. SOOOOO glad we didn't buy a house or even put offers in. God was telling us something! After being told we would stay put 'til 2012, now, we don't know what is going to happen. I hate having to be so patient with such big, life changing decisions. Regardless, we should know what is going to happen in the next week or so. We may be calling Georgia home in less than 6 weeks.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Dear 1st graders..

I love you.. I really do. I love your hugs, your funny stories, and your beautiful smiles. What I don't love, is your boogers. Especially the ones you attach to your math test complete with nose hair still in tact. It makes me want to vomit, especially since I'm a germa-phobe.

I wonder now that every time I touch your pencils, pick up your books, or grab your backpack, if their is a little boogy creeping around under there. It makes my skin crawl.

Sometimes I leave school and marinade in germ-x. I do not understand how you manage to cram your finger so far up your nose, do you think you might pull out a surprise the longer you leave it in there?

Please stop. It makes me want to gag. One day I might not hide my disgust with a smile, I may actually show you what I'm thinking with the facial expressions on my face. It might hurt your precious little feelings.


PS.. Boogs aren't full of protein either. Don't eat them. If you do, I will no doubt judge you.