Tuesday, August 31, 2010

So. Tired.

I have never experienced what such extreme exhaustion has felt like until recently. Im am so tired. Thankfully when I get to work though, I'm able to push past it and do my thing. Work doesn't feel like 'work' like it did in college. I don't dread it nor do I hate going there. I love my job and I love what I do, now if I could just get the hang of it. Im not going to lie, Im not used to not being good at something.

Im so thankful God has blessed me with such a great class. Are they perfect? No. They have their behavior issues and I have some that drive me nuts but they all mesh so well. I feel so lucky. They have great parents who are involved and care about what they are doing and to be honest, I feel spoiled.

I am finally making friends. I went to church on Sunday and feel like it could be my church home. I enjoy the people I work with and know that if I ever needed anything, they would drop anything to help me.

I feel like I'm waiting for the ball to drop and I shouldn't be this lucky. Anyone ever feel that way? Like when something good happens to you, it has to be followed by something bad?

Maybe Im just crazy.

Baby fever is slowly starting to set in. I've been saying I don't want babies for years and now I feel like I want one. Its a little baby bug but I hope it goes away because I'm not sure I'm ready. Are you ever really ready?

5 comments:

Beth said...

I thought I was ready, then we got pregnant and I was sure that I wasn't! Eek! I agree with you though, I don't think you can ever really be ready for it!

I'm glad to hear that your job is going well!

Brittany Ann said...

I'm glad you love your job. I get that paranoid feeling too, almost every time something good happens to me. I wish I didn't, but I do.

And no, I don't think we're really ever ready for babies.

Abbie said...

Oh gosh can I relate! I come home every night and just want to crash and burn! I don't think I've ever been this tired so many days in a row!

I'm so glad you love it though! My class is just great too! How did we get so lucky with our first year of teaching?!

Hang in there...it's almost Friday!

Jen said...

I totally feel like I am waiting for something bad is going to happen. You aren't alone with that - I think I have even blogged about it recently.

Part of it stems from the fact that I see those in horrible situations at work everyday, I certainly thank God for what I have.

Babies? No, you aren't ever totally ready, but there are better times than others. Acheive your couple goals first, make sure your bank account is nicely padded, have some talks..and then go for it.

If you wait until you are too old (like me) then you over think and stress out when you do finally TTC!

ens said...

im glad the job is going well and that you're liking it.

as for babies - i am NOT ready yet or now but i think when I am i'll just know it - it could be tomorrow it could be years from now.. thats my theory and im stickin to it :)